I’ve continued to work on my book, going back and reading the journals.  It is amazing to see what came to me when.  There are two gifts in this writing.  The first is the symbol.  God, made this squiggled line and circle, then wrote, You and I are One.  The second is the canvas journals.

8/3/03 Boulder

You and I are One

God, I’m getting images of my journals being written on very large canvases. It’s like the way for me to yell at the top of my lungs the truth of you.

“Yes, Diane – stay with these visions. You will know what is right and when it is right to start venturing out with these writings. You know you are receiving Divine wisdom. All relevant to your process and relevant to humankind’s process. You are learning and remembering the absolute necessity for the truth. It is true that you are writing this – it will be the expression of your truth that you share it. I will help you and guide you when the time is right. You are moving in the right direction. Your ability to release your fears and connection to who you believed you are and were, will open up the depths of your creativity. If you carry any worry what anyone will think of you then you will not be true – even to yourself. Give up your self importance. Stop caring. I have said this before. Speak your truth.  Write your truth. Share  your truth and you are sharing Me.

Your writing is from Me. The fact that your friend minimized it does not matter. That is why you will paint my words so many will know. You will do it in a way that will attract those that are ready to find the truth within themselves. Diane, you see the value of this knowing. You know how vitally important this truth is. You know that applying it to life means more than just manifesting personal abundance. Yes, this can easily be done – but the real power in knowing that we are all One means that we must take care of ourselves and that means everyone, starting with knowing Me. Which is you. Which is everyone. And taking care means loving everyone from a place of loving – giving what you can to everyone. This is loving Me. This is loving yourself, because there is no difference.

Love, God”

As I went through this process I realized the gift it was as it clearly showed me what I have learned, where I want to live, and what I am teaching. It was a gift in so many ways and the greatest is to see that we can know the truth of who we are, and that we can choose to be that One.

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10/28/02 Teo

Pyramid of the Sun.  The darkness is beginning illuminated. It is trying to keep me living in lies.  I have surrendered my life to God. The darkness has to go with this writing. I banish the darkness and fear that has kept my heart separate. But the idea of separation is a lie. I am Love.  There is no separation any more.  I am free.

Wow. Teo was a culmination of a lot of work and the final death of my old self. I took the red pill – and I am seeing. I have gained a new awareness to the “reality” underlying the dream. From that awareness I can now create my new life and “dream” from a new place that is connected with the Oneness of the Universe. In Teo I became awake. I not just understood that we are One, I now know and FEEL we are all One. I am the ocean. Natalia said I was a messenger of the ocean. Now I know that I can no longer live my life as a lone drop. I am feeling the incredible energy of the love in the universe and I renew my commitment daily to love connected to this energy – this love.  From here I know I will be sharing the love and awareness of the ocean.

Narrative:

The trip to Teo, was phenomenal.  We stayed at the Club Med right next to Teotihuacan, and began a journey to die to the old self, and awaken as the butterfly.  I met some wonderful people, and some who are friends to this day.  Everyone had a different experience.  I felt like I was scratching the surface of this spiritual thing, yet had several experiences beyond my normal idea of reality.  The most profound part of the experience was a ceremony involving burying a symbol of myself and attending my own funeral.  The first miracle was my real experience of letting go of all regret and guilt I held and all the expectations that I thought everyone else carried for me as a daughter, friend, employee, and citizen.  I truly felt free of my past.  The next miracle happened the next day when I went back to the location of my grave and found a beautiful flower growing on the exact spot – which I know was not there the day before.

After we finished on the last day, I walked across the grounds, very much aware of being in a different state of consciousness.  I then saw all these butterflies flitting around.  I had my camera, so I asked them if I could take their picture.  They all – about 7 of them, landed in one spot on the grass, and let me take several shots.  They all then took off and circled around me and flew away.  I know that we were communicating, and I knew that I was connecting to something greater within me.

This was profound event in my awakening journey.  The Toltec teachings are clear and yet radical.  They are accessible, but not easy to live by.  I’m realizing now that I have continued to use them and teach them to this day.

In hindsight I see that this was my initiation to living a divinely guided life.

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10/27/02 Teo

This morning I awoke after dreaming about Ann. Though it was not her. I think it was a composite of her. The dream showed me my victim and I was conscious of it. I’m beginning to see.

Narrative:

The final day at Teo was to climb the Pyramid of the Sun and emerge as the butterfly – to fly back to the Sun, to become our true Selves: One with the Source.  I was feeling some profound changes within me, as I was becoming aware of myself at a deeper level. Carol was seeing and describing visions of Teo from the time it was covered in gold and full of people in ceremony.  John was complaining nothing was happening and was frustrated and disgruntled over the whole thing.

We got up early and began to climb the stairs to start the ritual.  I knew that I was beginning to connect with my real playful self, as I found joyful humor in seeing one of the feral dogs that hung around the site begging for food, silhouetted by the sun above me.  I laughed as I had the sudden realization that we were actually climbing the pyramid to reach Dog.

At the top we all sat in a circle in deep meditation.  The interesting part of this is I felt like we were truly deep into the ceremonial reality of Teo, while at the same time surrounded by hundreds of people who were there as tourists.  For the first time in my life, I wasn’t self conscious.  At a moment in my meditation, where I was beginning to feel doubtful and a moment of darkness was beginning to enter, John began to whine: “I’ve been to a hundred workshops, I’ve meditated till my legs have gone to sleep, I’ve given up every vice and bad habit, and I’VE STILL NOT HAD ONE VISION OR HEARD ANYTHING!   WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME!?  At that moment we all burst into laughter and it brought us all (including John) back to the basic yet profound beauty and perfection of the moment (John did have his transformational experience that night by sneaking back into Teo and dancing with the moon).

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10/26/02 Teo.

Today I died. I crossed the river of the dead and said goodbye to my life and my family and a few friends. When I looked at who was important I was surprised that the only ones I really wanted to see before I died was my family. I especially wanted to see my brother. I didn’t want to see Ann. I had a dream about her last night that showed me I really didn’t want to see her again. Today I died to my past. I buried Diane and had a few people attend the funeral. They drove off and I am released. There are no more expectations of me now that I am dead.

We then went to the place of water and I was cleansed by the waves. Natalie baptized me and said I was to remember the Love of Teo every time I drink.  This removed the emotions of fear.

We then went to the place of the Women. There we began the process of regaining who we really are. I hung in the womb of the earth and just thought about accepting. We then went to the water inlet (there was no real water here) where I felt the water rushing over me and I asked it to fill my hands and use my hand for the highest good. Brandt said the women wanted him to tell me that they were giving me some of their gifts. I walked around Teo alone. No thoughts, just me. We ate, heard music and laughed tonight.

Tonight I pray for more understanding. I commit my life to you, God, I know you are here at Teo. Please help me see what you want from me. If it is only for me to be happy, help me to understand that. Thank you for this transformation. I am getting close to you.  Thank you. Love, me.

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The coincidences in my life continue to amaze me.  I’m experiencing the three-way conversation with God and the book I am reading, again.  As I’m writing about my experience of doing a Toltec Power Journey at Teotihuacan in October 2002, I’m reading don Miguel Ruiz’s new book, The Toltec Art of Life and Death. He too is writing about the transformational journey in Teo as he received to teach awareness.  I’m writing my book, then reading his, which is reminding me more of my journey, helping me to go deeper into the experience.  I am seeing now that it was having the intent (not just setting an intention) to awaken that created the opening and the experience I have been cultivating over the past 13 years.

Here are some journal entries from The Year of Awakening, that I believe opened the door for my awakening:

I flew to Mexico and then traveled by car through Mexico City to Teotihuacan.  I met the Brandt and the group there and began my journey to finding myself.

Teo

10/24/02 Teo

This is the place where men (women) become Gods.  Here I will release the last of the walls.  The last of the lies and the last of the false beliefs – so I can be free to express my highest good.  Here I will find my truth.   As of today I will no longer accept anything but pure love I my life. God, I pray to you – show me the truth.   

10/25/02

Today I jumped into the belly of quetzalcoatl, the feathered serpent.  I’ve asked that everything this is not me be removed and the soul that is pure love be left.  God has told me she has already forgiven me for my past.  Now it is up to me.  I come to Teo to complete the process.  I now vow:

I forgive myself for my past
I forgive everyone I have ever met for every real or imagined transgression
I am no longer a victim
I am no longer a judge
I renounce all attachment to:

Things – house, car, money
Ideas – That don’t need to be defended
Thoughts – that tell stories in my mind
Beliefs – That can all be changes
People – Parents, relationships
Food – Food is a gift and a tool
Self Identity – I now have none to be attached to.

By the end of these few days I want to be left with the love of who I am.  I ask the masters in the stones to talk to me.  Tell me what to do from here.  Please, lead me to love.

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